I'm in the mood to kick someones ass!
A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y
1. Do you like anyone?: Yes
2. Do they know it?: I would hope so
3. Simple or complicated?: Pretty simple
IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U
4. Bought something: Yes
5. Gotten sick?: No
6. Been hugged?: Yes
7. Felt stupid?: Yes
8. Talked to an ex: Ugh. Let's NOT talk about that.
9. Missed someone: Yes
10. Failed a test: No, I actually passed my MTELs
11. Danced: Yes
12. Gotten your hair cut? Yes
13. Lied: Yeah
U N I Q U E
14. Nervous habits?: Touching my nose, pressing my lips together, biting my lips
15. Are you double jointed?: Not at all
16. Can you roll your tongue?: Yeah
17. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Lol no
18. Can you cross your eyes?: I dont think so
19. Do you make your bed daily?: Nope. I don't sleep in my actual bed spread. I sleep on top of all of that with a different blanket on top of me, so my bed never comes un-made. Weird, I know.
20. Do you think you are unique?: Slightly
H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S
21. Said "I Love you": Yeah
22. Given money to a homeless person: I was friends with homeless people.
23. Smoked?: Cloves. Ew.
24. Waited all night for a phone call?: A few hours.
25. Snuck out?: Yeah, but I got caught
26. Sat and looked at the stars?: Yep
M A N N E R S
27. Do you swear/curse?: Yeah
28. Do you ever spit?: No
29. You cook your own food? If I can.
30. You do your own chores?: Rarely.
31. You like beef jerky?: Ew no.
32. You're happy with your life?: There could be some minor changes, but all in all, I have no reason to complain.
33. You own a dog?: I used to, but he's dead.
34. You spend your money wisely?: No, I piss it away
35. Do you like to swim?: I would like it better if I could actually do more than a doggy paddle
36. When you get bored do you call a friend: No
D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S
37. Flowers or angels?: Flowers
38. Gray or black?: Black
39. Color or black and white photos?: Colored
40. Lust or love?: They're both amazin
41. Sunrise or sunset?: Sunset
42. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&Ms
43. Staying up late or waking up early?: Waking up early
44. Being hot or cold?: Hot
45. Winter or Fall?: Fall
46. Left or right?: Right
47. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: 2 best friends
48. Sunshine or rain?: Sunshine
M O R E-H A V E-Y O U-E V E R'S
49. Been Dumped?: Yes
50. Stolen money from a friend?: No
51. Been in a fist fight?: Yes
52. Snuck out of your house?: Yes
53. Had a crush on a teacher?: Yes
54. Seen someone die?: No
55. Been on an airplane? Yes
56. Slept all day?: No
57. Missed someone so much it hurt?: Yes
58. Fallen asleep during school?: I think I might have once in high school
59. Been lonely?: Oh yes
60. Cheated in a game?: Hahah that's why no one likes to play with me
61. Been to the ER?: Not as a patient.
62. Been in a car accident?: Yes, a few
63. Had detention?: Hahah yeah, twice. One for laughing when a kid was getting yelled at, and one for throwing colored pencils at a kid in art class.
64. Missed your first love?: Yeah, a long time ago
65. Cried yourself to sleep?: Yes
66. Sung in the shower?: Yes
67. Kissed a complete stranger?: Yeah
68. Laughed so hard you cried?: Yes
69. Cheated on a bf/gf?: Sadly, yes
70. Regretted hurting someone?: I regret hurting some people.
71. Regretted loving someone?: Yes. Some people didn't deserve my love.
What do people call you?: Kirsten or KK
What color is your hair? Reddish
Is it natural? No
How is it styled right now? Parted down the middle and hanging loose. Josh calls it my weave.
Do you have allergies? I think I'm allergic to something around here because since I've been home, all I've done is sneezed.
Do you have any other medical issues? Just a dislocated jaw and slight anemia right now
Are you on medication for anything? Population control
What are you doing tomorrow? Packing
What are you doing this weekend? I just got back from Wendy's with Josh and Katie, and yesterday I hung out with Dustin, Nate, and Blake.
Do you have a job? Not at the moment.
What was the last thing you bought? underwear, a bra, a white tank top, and a pair of pants
How good is your eyesight? Awful.
What color is your mailbox? Black
How many windows are in your room? Zer0
What color are your bedroom walls? Green
What color are your sheets? Umm, dark green
What color is the carpet? Pink
Do you stalk people? Just enough to get some dirt on them
Have you ever had a stalker? Ugh, yes. I wonder if she still does.
What was the last thing you ate? Wendys!
Is your handwriting neat or sloppy? Mediocre at best.
Are you a slob? No
What do you spend a lot of money on? Clothes, books, and shoes
How many pairs of shoes do you own? Omg over 20
Do you sleep with the door open or closed? Closed
Do you sleep with the closet doors open or closed? I dont have a closet
Who was better: N*Sync or Backstreet Boys? BSB all the way! Brian Littrell was my first celebrity crush!
When was the last time you took a shower? Around 2 this afternoon
What does your mom do for a living? She works overnights at a group home for mentally disabled people.
Where is your dad right now? His friend's house
Who is the prettiest person you know? My ass.
What are you listening to right now? Nothing
What does your favorite shirt look like? I don't have a favorite shirt.
Do you read a lot? Yeah. I read 17 novels this summer.
Do you write a lot? No, not anymore.
What's the biggest age difference between you and someone you've liked? Um, the oldest person I've dated was 4 years older than me I think.
What was your favorite thing to do when you were little? Suck my thumb
Where were you born? Boston, MA
Would you ever shave your head? Yeah, for money
Do people tell you that you're attractive? Yeah, all the time.
Do you wear a lot of makeup? No, I don't need a lot of make up.
What time do you get up in the morning? Depends on what I have to do. I don't like to sleep past 9:30
How long does it take you to get ready? Like a half an hour for basic showering and grooming needs
Do you look a lot like people in your family? Some
Are your parents still married? Yeah
Do you owe anyone money? No
Who?
What for?
Do you kill bugs? If they're not gross!
Are you afraid of the dark? I'm afraid of what's hiding in the dark
What are you afraid of? Aliens and knee caps.
Who was the last person or people you hung out with? Katie and Josh
Where was the last place you went? Wendy's
Do you have a cat? Not anymore
Do you have a dog? Not anymore
Do you like sports? Tennis
Do you like art? Sort of
Do you like math? No!
Do you like your school? Kinda
Are your parents strict? No
What time do you have to be home? When I feel like it
Do you watch TV a lot? No
What's your favorite movie? Fellowship of the Ring
Why did your last relationship fail? Distance. And we were both in two different points in our lives.
Do you have any pink clothing? Yes
Do you wear a lot of black? Yes
Are you tan? Nooo
Piercings? Ears
Tattoos? 4
How tall are you? 5'9
Would you ever ask someone out? Sure
Do you like the rain? Nope
What are you wearing right now? Pajamas
Would you ever want to be famous? Yes!
How did you get one of your scars? Getting a woodchip lodged in my leg
Do you get in fights a lot? No
Have you ever had the chicken pox? Yeah
Do you get sick a lot? No
How many living things live in your house? 6
Are you loud? Sometimes
What math are you in? Physics, if you count that.
Do you save a lot of things that are important to you? Yes
Do you believe in fortunes from fortune cookies? Haha no. They're made by retired teachers who type them up and send them to a factory in New Jersey.
Who was the last person you kissed? Dustin!
Who was the last person you hugged? Dustin
Who was the last person you rode with in a car? Katie and Josh
Would you ever go bungee jumping? No
Would you ever travel to a country without indoor plumbing? Probably
Do you like people? No. Simply, no.
I just got back from Sutton a little while ago. I went up yesterday around 9:30. It was really fun! Dustin and I hung out for a little bit and played Guitar Hero. Then we called up Nathan to come over, and we watched No Country for Old Men. Around 5, we went to Blake's to pick him up and we headed to Dave and Buster's in Providence. Dustin and Nate kept getting jackpots on all the games, and I kept failing miserably. My 592 tickets were nothing compared to their 900 and 1500 tickets haha. We ended up just giving them all to Nate since it was his birthday thing. But we each got a shot glass. Then we left and went back to Blake's for a little bit. Then we went back to Dustin's and ate some left over pizza and bananas haha. Around 11:30, Nathan left, and we got ready for bed. Woke up at like 9:00 this morning, and left for the Cape around 10:30. I wish I could have stayed longer, but we'll see each other in two days! Unfortunately, it will never be just us. Oh, college life.
Today, Mom and I did some school shopping. I came home, ate a sandwich, read, and took a nap. Then I went over Tara and Kristina's and we all went to Adventure Isle. The place sucks even more than it used to. We did the bumper boats and the go karts. Then we went to Falmouth mainstreet and at at Liam's Pub. We met an interesting guy there with his 7 year old daughter. He definitely had some issues going on. Then we walked along the beach in Falmouth Heights. It was a pretty good night. Oh! I was a traitor, and went to Inkwell, and got this new biography on Hawthorne that is supposedly amazing. The author was at that bookstore yesterday. I missed it. But I can't wait to read the book.
I think it was time for a new LJ icon. I just finished No Country for Old Men. It was SUCH a great book. The movie did it so much justice too. Whoever wrote the screenplay and directed it did a great job. I hope The Road movie is just as good. Yes, they're turning that book into a movie as well. Viggo is playing the dad. I saw a picture in E weekly and it looks NOTHING like him haha.
That's all for now!
I passed the MTELS!! I haven't gotten the official scores in the mail yet, but they sent me an email saying:
001 Communication and Literacy Skills: Reading Subtest
Status: Met the Qualifying Score
Minimum Qualifying Score: 240
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001 Communication and Literacy Skills: Writing Subtest
Status: Met the Qualifying Score
Minimum Qualifying Score: 240
Today was my last day of work for the summer. YAY and BOO at the same time. I have no moneys. Tonight, Katie and Josh came over and we went to mainstreet and walked around, then we drove around and talked. Overall, a good night.
Tomorrow, I think mom and I are doing some school shopping!
I feel really weird right now. Like I'm living in a daze. Or just a really sad monotonous life. Everything is so goddamn structured. I just want a little surprise in my daily life. I dunno. Anything.
Dan McGuire and Paul Conlon have both been killed in Iraq in the past two days. Dan was two days ago, and Paul was either last night or this morning. It's ridiculous. Dan was in the grade below me, and Paul in the grade above. I was more friends with Paul, but I feel bad for both of their families. I don't want to go into a political rant, but I just know that my hatred for the war right now is more real than it has ever been. There's truly a different perspective when people you know get killed. I hope Adam Barker is okay over there, because he has a wife and a kid waiting for him home.
So, I work 9-5 until Friday haha. Lisa's punishing me for leaving for school. She has Josh working 6 days in a row, too. Oh well. 8 more days. Just 8 more days.
There's nothing else to update.
Heathcliff died today. I picked up his house so that I could pet him, but when I lifted the house up he wasn't breathing. So I touched him and he was stiff as a board. Poor little guy! He was curled up and looked peaceful, so I hope he died in his sleep, and without pain. So I put him in the shoebox that belonged to my most expensive pair of shoes, and buried him in the yard.
RIP! I believe a Wuthering Heights quote is only appropriate here:
Finding the correspondence letters between Melville and Hawthorne would be a dream come true.
I'm reading a book called The Secret of Lost Things by Sheridan Hay. It's about a rare and used bookstore who gets their hands on a story written by Melville called The Isle of the Cross that was otherwise known as nonexistent, or even lost. Now, apparently, this work of fiction really had existed at one point in time.
Melville, in my opinion, had a hero worship of Hawthorne (who wouldn't). He constantly wrote intimate letters to him declaring how talented and smart Hawthorne was. I've read some of their letters and noticed that Melville was obviously extremely lonely and found a confidant in Hawthorne, even though Hawthorne was like 15 years older than Melville. Hawthorne's replies to Melville's letters seemed almost passive, maybe even disgusted. Obviously Hawthorne did not approve of homosexuality, just taken straight evidence from his novels, but I really think Melville was bisexual. Maybe even homosexual. Being married with children didn't mean anything back then haha. Anyway, what the fuck was my point...
OH! Ok, so there is this one letter than Melville wrote to Hawthorne chronicalling this lawyer he met and a story that the lawyer "gave" to Melville. The story was an actual work experience that the lawyer had. The details aren't that important, except the letters are called "The Agatha Letters." Melville wrote to Hawthorne and vehemently asked him to write this story. This is where it gets weird because Melville gives him so many "suggestions" for the story, such as plot, names, places, etc. Why wouldn't Melville just write this story in the first place? I think that Melville wanted Hawthorne to write him a story. I think he wanted to be apart of Hawthorne some how, and through this story he could be. Hawthorne wrote back in a strange manner, unlike his other letters. He wrote a short and sweet reply basically telling Melville to write it himself since he already had most of the details. Melville then replied:
My dear Hawthorne,--
The other day, at Concord, you expressed uncertainty concerning your undertaking the story of Agatha, and, in the end, you urged me to write it. I have decided to do so, and shall begin it immediately upon reaching home; and so far as in me lies, I shall endeavor to do justice to so interesting a story of reality. Will you therefore enclose the whole affair to me; and if anything of your own has occurred to you in your random thinking, won't you note it down for me on the same page with my memorandum? I wish I had come to this determination at Concord, for then we might have more fully and closely talked over the story, and so struck out new light. Make amends for this, though, as much as you conveniently can. With your permission I shall make use of the "Isle of Shoals," as far as the name goes at least. I shall also introduce the old Nantucket seaman, in the way I spoke to you about. I invoke your blessing upon my endeavors; and breathe a fair wind upon me. I greatly enjoyed my visit to you, and hope that you reaped some corresponding pleasure.
H. Melville
Julian, Una, and Rose, my salutations to them.
So, does this story exist somewhere in the lost archives of history! In a more modern tone, WHERE THE FUCK IS THIS STORY! I want to read it! Now, there is a story called The Norfolk Isle and the Chola Widow, which I have not read yet. But some say that this is a watered down rewrite of his original story.
Is this not beyond interesting.... or am I just a humongous nerd. Never mind, don't answer that! :P
And in the closing words of Melville, "I dont know when I shall see you. I shall lay eyes on you one of these days however. Keep some Champagne or Gin for me."
Haven't posted in a while. Nothing noteworthy has really happened. I went to a party at Danny and Mary's house with my parents. Anna Smith was there so we drank some margaritas. I've been working a lot, and reading a lot. Katie, Josh, and I have hung out a little bit. We watched The Mist the other night, and a few nights before that, Katie and I watched 2 scary movies. I went for an eye exam today. My prescription went up a little bit, and I had to get a new brand of contacts, but all in all, it was fine. My mouth splint thing seems to sort of help my jaw, but it's still sore, and I still can't open it all the way. I'm beginning to think it's a VERY long process. But as long as I can give adequate blowjobs, who cares. ;)
Tomorrow is my day off! I'm so so so so so sick of tourists!!! I really wish the bridges would just fucking collapse while they were on them. I don't understand why the majority of the people who vacation on the cape are preppy parents with extremely annoying and spoiled little toddlers. Ugh, I hate this place. I can't wait to move off of this island. It's even more annoying because they really think we live to serve them. Because.... we really don't. And you know what, I'd rather you never come again and support our economy. That way, it'd force my parents to move! Locals can't do one thing without getting stuck in traffic, almost into car accidents because people don't know where they're going or how to use a rotary, asked directions, or stuck in line behind people who are too happy to be waiting in a huge line for ice cream. Not to mention that they take all the parking spaces at work! AHHHHHHHHHH. *shoots tourists*
Ok, I'm done rambling.
So, I went to the dentist today to get my jaw reset. It turns out that my jaw was already pretty much on it's way to going back to normal. The dentist had me open my mouth and when he saw how wide I could open it, he was like, "OH MY GOSH!" When I first came to visit him like a week and a half ago, I could only open it about 20 mm. The normal is 40 mm. I guess today I started at 33 mm. So, he said that he was going to be "conservative" and not give me any Novocaine or laughing gas. So I got a little nervous because I can't do any dental work without my laughing gas. But he just wiggle my jaw a little bit, pushed it around, told me to move it in certain ways, and we measured it a few more times and it gradually kept getting up. So at the end of the procedure, I could open it about 39 mm. YAY! I also only have to wear the retainer thing when I'm sleeping, instead of all day 24/7. AND the best part is that I don't have to be on a liquid diet!!!
This is all thanks to Dustin!
