I went for a cleaning today, which was beyond difficult since I
can't open my mouth wide. So they were nice enough and took xrays for
free, and they saw this little white thing where the top of my jawbone
is where it stops when I try to open my mouth. It's also where the pain
is. They said it was the same material as a filling, so it's metal.
Great. They told me to call the oral surgeon asap and they're going to
send over the xrays and Dr. Lewis is going to email him.
I'm SO pissed. I mean, of fucking COURSE this happens to me. Of course. The 1 in 100 million chance of FUCKING UP happens to me. This is probably going to require another surgery, another week out of work, another 3 weeks of recovery. I mean, I really don't have time for this shit right now. My month of July is booked, but at the same time, I don't want to not be able to open my mouth for another month. It's annoying when I can't even eat a fucking cupcake because my mouth wont fit around it.
I am SO aggravated.
So, there is going to be a Breaking Dawn party at the bookstore on August 3rd. Katie and I were planning it today. We came up with some cool events such as a dating game, bobbing for apples, face painting, costume show, and trivia. There's also going to be blood red punch, popcorn, apples, soda, and cake. We'll play the live Stephenie Meyer broadcast, and we are going to make soundtracks to listen to through out the night. We took the songs from her website. We have to get over to AC Moore at some point so we can buy decorations. The staff is also suggested to dress up as a character. I decided that I am going to go as Alice. Katie's going to be Rosalie. Unfortunately, we haven't been able to find an Edward. The only boy that works at the bookstore is Josh, and he hasn't read the books so he doesn't even want to work that night. I don't really blame him. I'm just working because I like to decorate. :)
I just saw Wall-E. It was THE cutest movie ever. It made me teary at some points because it was so heart warming haha.
There might be a Breaking Dawn party at the bookstore when it comes out. I am slightly amused, but even more disgusted. I already told Katie that she's dressing up as Edward, and I'm going to be Jacob. Can this really be the next Harry Potter? Granted, I never read Harry Potter (and don't want to), so I can't quite compare the two books. Anyway, staying up till two in the morning, selling these books to pathetic girls who obsess over a fictional, weird, obsessive character will be the last thing on my list.
Anyway, I worked 9-5 today, and received 9 boxes of books. It took me four hours. 4,500 dollars worth of books. I was so annoyed towards the end that I didn't even care if the money was off or anything. I don't think it was though, although we were missing a few books.
There was a cicada attack in the bookstore. Some old woman came in and threw her purse on the ground and yelled, "IT'S ONE OF THOSE THINGS!" And then all of a sudden I saw this Cicada flying towards me and I backhanded it onto the counter. Then it made that really loud, piercing scream (that I thought came from the lady, but realized her mouth wasn't opening when the noise happened). So then I freaked out because that noise was unbearably weird and freaky. The woman was freaking out. She was like, "KILL IT! SMASH IT!" So I took a tape dispenser and tried to smash it, but the bug was so huge and screaming that I couldn't bring myself to do it. Then finally I mustered up the courage and smacked it. I did feel really bad, because the force of the blow wasn't strong enough to kill it. So it just laid under the tape dispenser wriggling, until it finally stopped and flattened. Josh came in with our sandwiches. Thankfully he missed the epic part of the battle, since his hatred and fear of Cicadas is greater than mine. We put the dead cicada in a brown bag and when Katie came into work we told her we got her a present, and when she opened up the bag, the red-eyed cicada was staring lifelessly at her. It was classic.
After work, Josh and Matt came over and we ate dinner, and played Fusion Frenzy 2. Well, they did. I watched. Then they left and I read some more of In the Heart of the Sea. I have about 30 more pages. I'll probably finish it tomorrow.
Dustin just left. :(
He came down Monday afternoon. I worked 9-3, but I went home at 2. I bought 4 more books. Ugh. Working in a bookstore is worse than working in a shoe store. Oh well. I'd rather spend my money on books instead of useless things. Like love. Hahah. jk.
Anyway, so he came down on Monday and we had to go to Falmouth to get Papa's car. Later on in the day, Matt came over and the three of us went to the mall. I got the Sweeney Todd soundtrack and a goofy Wookie card for Katie. On the way home, it started to rain so hard. It was kinda scary, but we made it home. Matt left shortly after that, and Dustin and I had a fun night.
The next morning, we went to Percy's for breakfast. We didn't end up going to the Vineyard because the weather was shitty. Instead, we just lounged around, played Guitar Hero II, watched Afro Samurai, and then we picked up Katie at 4:30 from work, and we went back to my house. We watched Idle Hands until Matt got to my house and we went to the 99. Back at my house, Dustin didn't feel good, so we watched some of American Beauty, and then around 8:30, we went to South Cape Beach and walked along the shore. The sky was really pretty and the weather was being nice, so it was romantic. We talked about some stuff in the car, and I think we both feel reassured and better. We went to Stop and Shop and got Italian ice. Mmm. We talked some more back at my house and then retired to bed.
Woke up this morning and had to go to the bank to give Dad 200 bucks for car insurance. Yuck. Then ate breakfast, watched Jerry Springer haha, and said our goodbyes. :(
Only another month till we get to see each other again. *sigh*
Time to submerge myself into books so that I can forget my pain. (ok it's not that dramatic, but you all get the point).
I just finished Snow Flower and the Secret Fan by Lisa See. It was really good. The way she narrated was a little annoying at times, but the story made up for it. There were parts in the book that just made me say, "Wow, I am SO glad I live in this century." If I ever had to endure footbinding, nasty mother-in-laws, and arranged marriages that only went well if you produced a son, I MIGHT have killed myself. But definitely read it if you're into books.
I'm going to start In the Heart of the Sea: The Tragedy of the Whaleship Essex. Tomorrow. Should be a good read. I've wanted to read it since senior year. So, yeah... gotta get on that.
Hm, what else. Work was annoying last night because the register stalled, so all the numbers were off today for the combined reports. *Sigh* If only the printer was loaded. I tried to print one of the reports, but the printer outback had no paper in it, which then proceeded to stall Register 2. So then I couldn't even get onto the register screen. It was a pain in the ass, and I went in a half an hour early today to try and fix it, but I had to call Lisa. Thankfully we got it working, but then the register stalled again today around 4:30, but luckily after I restarted the computer, it went back on. It's so weird.
I work
9-3 tomorrow. Then I have to go to the bank, the hair dresser, and get
my Papa's car with mom. THEN Dustin's coming down! :)
YAY!!!
I went for my physical today and the doctor told me that I need to gain weight. I guess I weigh 116 pounds and apparently at 5'9 it's unhealthy. For some reason, she thought I didn't know that and asked if I was bulimic. Then she told me that I'm not anemic, and the reason I get dizzy, fatigued, and bruised is because I don't eat enough or drink enough fluids. The fluids part I know I don't drink enough of, but I eat like there's no tomorrow. Then she asked if I was depressed, or in an abusive relationship... I told her I was in a relationship, but it's not abusive or unhealthy, and she was like, "Well, sometimes two people can make the best of friends, but be awful as a couple." I wanted to be like, "Good, when I find them I'll let them know." Then she told me I need to see a psychologist because I have a Type A personality, and because I'm paranoid and anxious. I didn't think the insults could get any worse, until she went into the waiting room and told my mom that she needs to feed me. Lol. I didn't even know how to respond to that. She wants to see me back in a month, and she wants me to gain 5 pounds by then. I'm not going back in a month. No thank you.
I'm tired now and I have such a headache. *light bulb goes off* MAYBE I SHOULD EAT!
Did I ever mention how much I HATE when mothers or fathers get overly into their child's business. I remember in like 6th grade, I was friends with this girl who hated another girl I was friends with, and then the father of girl 1 told me "just because you're friends with girl 2 doesn't mean you can't be friends with my daughter." I just remember being like... who the fuck asked you? Anyway, I witnessed that again today (not personally), but it's like, annoying.
OMG I WANT EDWARD TO BITE MY NECK AND THEN FUCK THE TEETH SOCKETS.....NOT.
Anyway, Edward Cullen reminds me of Bob, and it makes me feel creepy reading it. I'm not exaggerating either. The dialogue, the forced pseudo-intellectual conversations, the mannerisms, everything is just Bob. In a way it's goofy, but at the same time, it's beyond stereotypical and predictable.
The main character, Bella, is annoyingly clumsy and pathetically predictable. She is myself when I was in tenth grade, and maybe that's why I hate reading it even more. The little details about her (such as the CD she was listening to being, overtly, hardcore, the continual reference to how pale she is, her classic inability to do sports or succeed in gym, and her rambling off of classic literature that she has read) makes her exactly like me, and exactly why I hate her. I also find it ironic that Meyer continually lists of classic literature, as if trying to prove that she has read decent books (and to apologize for the atrocity of her series).
The writing is choppy, plain, and extremely easy to read. I admit, I am not the fastest reader, and the fact that I read 286 pages in one day is remarkable. I'm driven solely by the extreme sense of accomplishment I will feel when I finish this. I am also very excited to build a thesis off of it. What else was I going to say?
Oh! Besides the story being a little bland, enormously predictable, Bella's friendships with the kids at school a little annoying and unrealistically realistic, and the fearless visits from the rain every single chapter, the book has undoubtedly captured my attention. Why??? For a book that is so awfully written, why is it so interesting to read? I am not fond of Edward, in the sense that I want him to bite me and steal my vampire virginity. I don't find him extraordinarily refreshing, handsome, sexy, or perfect. In fact, his perfectness is what makes me hate him the most, and I was reflecting on LOTR as I was reading this, and how Aragorn was one of my least favorite characters because i thought he was too perfect. Maybe it's because I substitute Dustin for Edward and feel a sense of fulfillment. A sense of, "I don't need someone like Edward because I have Dustin." Maybe I hate Bella because she reminds me too much of myself, or a part of myself that I don't like anymore. Maybe I hate this book because I relate to it so much. In any case, I am fascinated by it.
I have a lot of other points to make, but I'm sleepy. Instead, I will write down some interesting/comical things I have stumbled upon while reading this book.
1) The vampires in her book are pale, perfect, dainty, swift, and strong. NOT unlike the elves depicted in Tolkien's world. The irony is too impressive to be ignored.
2). The stereotypes in this book are immaculate. "I should be tan, sporty, blond --- a volley-ball player, or a cheerleader, perhaps--- all the things that go with living in the valley of the sun."
3) The extreme "emo-ness" of the book. "At least my skin wouldn't be a stand out here."
"...and not depressed enough to shoot myself on purpose."
"'Ew!' Snow. There went my good day."
"I like the night. Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." Now, I swear I wrote that in a poem at one point in my life.
4) The contrived and predictable plot devices. "I recognized Edward Cullen by his unusual hair, sitting next to that single open seat."
5) Something I just found funny. "We had a pop quiz on Wuthering Heights. It was straightforward and easy." Yes, much like this book. And I admit, when I first read that line, I was actually offended that she tarnished the reputation of my favorite book by placing it in hers.
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